about that...

i realized, upon reading over some past entries, that i contradict myself. possibly i am a wandering soul... but is that what God called me to do ? if you scanned over any of this year (which is the entire blog) then you may have noticed: i admit i am a wandering soul, but also state the God has a plan that makes us not wanderers. catch it?
no, of course not. that's why i am writing this.

again, in relation to the previous post, i've learned quite a bit about dealing with either 'mistakes' or 'regrets' and admitting they have already happened, that they are God's plan, and that there is nothing i can do about it now. as to say... although i do not know what i am doing with my life and at times seem to be wandering into the gray areas of everything, God has a plan, making my 'wandering' not meaningless, but purposeful.

i actually lost my train of thought. ugh. anywho.
i'm not actually a fan of wandering at times... i like organizing, and cleanliness, and even, yes... routine. i simply need to figure things out eh? maybe what i want to study, the career path i want to take, and even if i desire to stay in this state. goodness me... so much to decide. how do the kids do it these days? oh wait... they don't. ouch sorry about that one Portland.

just because...
Dear Kelsey,
I do love you quite a lot, and think you are fantastic... Please figure your life out and realize that God should be your center, and that He will always be there for you.
Continually pray for everything and everyone around you, as if it does make a difference, even if just a little today... a little more tomorrow.
Take each moment as an opportunity; each and every situation you find yourself in will impact your future... Don't lose sight of that.
And finally, love. Do everything out of love and for the Glory of God. Love those around you, even if you don't want to; love the world around you, even if it is wicked; and above all, love your God with all your heart, mind, and soul.
-Self

let it go.

I really have nothing to say.

You know those moments when you wish you could go back and change just one thing? or maybe two? but it becomes too late and now you must continue with what has already been done.

yeah those.
i find comfort in those, knowing that God already planned it... even if i hate it now.


Thank you.